uhh i have no idea what to put in this box yet but i thought it was too cute to delete T.T dont worry ill think of something!!
hello all >.< writing again because i have been honestly feeling a little lonely lately :(
i'm still trying to find my crowd since moving back to my hometown after college. i have been going out to a lot to events and clubs and such, but it is honeslty really difficult finding and maintaining genuine friendships.
over the past few years, i have really been pushing myself to try to be a more social person, and to be more comfortable and confident in myself. i am so proud of how far i have come!! but some days i feel like i have reverted to my old ways and just get super anxious and in my head when im trying to meet new people.
it's also tough making friends as an adult. it is a little easier when you're younger and in school because most days of the week you are in a common place with many other people your age, and you have the time and place to talk to people and develop relationships.
currently, i am not in school, and i unfortunately still do not have a job, no matter how much i have been trying and sending out applications with my resumé. so i am having trouble finding a sense of community or being in a group with others.
as hard as it is, and as hard as it has been, i have hope that sometime in the future i can find my people- friends who share common interests and goals and values and morals. i ache and yearn for these connections, and i'm sure they will be worth the wait.
if any of my future friends are reading this letter of my past self, hello! i hope you know how much you mean to me and how long i've been searching for friends like you guys. i love you. :P hehehe
thank you to anyone who is reading this, it does help getting this out somewhere. i hope to whoever is reading this that you are fulfilled in your life, and if you aren't now, i know you will be <3
xoxo misti ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚